I'm terribly Sorry

After the fall out with Nalerenn, I have done what I can to see this site through, I loved this site, I tried to help, and I care deeply about it. But this whole thing nas left an awful taste in my mouth. Now, as I come on the site, I feel Ill and saddened beyond comprehension. I am wracked with guilt and sadness, and will not heal soon. I did what I could, working with Twi to try and find a peacable soulution to the problems, but I can see that there are too many who feel like someone needs to be hurt.

It is because of this overbearing sadness that I say this, I resign this position as official or any other moderation position and go back to player. I am sorry to those whom this may hurt, and to the people who will be sad to see me go, but I cannot be here. I feel too hurt and too dissappointed to be here now. I have no one I would suggest for my position, and I will be barely active if active at all for a VERY long time. Once again, I am sorry, and stress that this is not me trying to escape from problems, but I know if I stay, my sadness will become replaced by rage, and it will cloud any judgement I could make here. I wish all of you the best, and hope to god that this site can prosper and be fun for everyone.

Good luck, Albel/Fenix

Fully understandable. I feel the same way whenever I come back to the site as well. Hopefully I will be able to simply start anew and play the game some more. I love this game and this site. You are one of the few mods/officals I respect. I salute you.

*Salute*

Good luck with the game as a player. I hope you find peace, that goes for us all who feel this way about this site.

-Rinku

I wish you wouldn't go. Its been hard on all of us. We could certainley use your spirit here too. Heck, Im feeling terrible about this. RPs are going nutty on me, but I still will stay. I cant leave everyone alone. Thats just me though.

I remember you were teh first that greeted me on a PM telling me some pointers. I thank you for that.

THANKS FOR EVERYTHING!

-Lunarlion

I'm not that pissed because I was prepared and thought he might do something like that.

I hope you find peace.

All in all, I don't give a damn what Nal does anymore. I'm just concerned that we may lose members and RP activity.

Anyway, hope you return soon man. You're an awesome RP'er, artist and person in general. Find the closure you need and then return to us, alright? There will always be a place for you.

I don't believe I can muster up any more to say to that I haven't said elsewhere. You will be missed, but know that we understand your reasonings for such. Farewell, General...*Not-So-Psuedo Salute*

That... Gah. No insult I can think of would do him even a slight hint of justice.

Good luck Fenix, and I hope you find a good solution for the current situation. I'll remember you for being the first dude giving me my first boss to beat up.

*Salute*

I go away for vacation and this is what happens...

See ya later Albel/Fenix. I hope you feel better soon. Just know that most of the Mods really didn't have anything to do with it. It was basically Nal by himself.

Well dude, this sucks bollacks....

I guess the only thing I could possibly say is try to stay on AIM no?

I'm sorry for the double post but this has to be said.

Albel, I can't say I really agree with your decision. As a mod, and as an official.... we made sort of an oath to serve the members in their best interests. We did that, but we need to do that even more now. Sure, it kinda was our fault for the whole Nalerenn=pissy, but then again he was always easily pissed. I'm getting off track with the essence of my message

You need to be there, to let go of the past so that you can help the members just like you did so long ago. Bitter taste in your mouth? Tch, I know that feeling more than anything, all I know is I feel we acted so that the members wouldn't be subjected to Nalerenn's own shortfuse. The actions he resorted to get his way time and time again made me fully believe in my actions. That may not have done it for you, and it may make you incrediably regretful, but it's over with. To dwell on the past is to merely suffer in the present.

That is why, I beg you.... I know you wouldn't let your sadness turn to anger, it just doesn't seem like who you are. Come back Albel, for the members....

Fenix (Old habits die hard, please forgive me)--I completely understand. Thank you for your efforts earlier, and may your life be less depressing than the current change in events.

Really sorry that this had to happen a couple weeks after you returned...

Keep in touch, alright?

Well, the person who first guided me and modded my battle, too, I hope you wouldn't leave, but it's your decision. I really respected you before, now and eternity. I hope you'll still RP together, as a player. But I hope you'll again be a mod or official.

Keep in touch...

I just, I need to get back in shape again...I'm a little messed by this still. I'm sorry to those who are hurt by this, and I'm sorry braden, I know that, which is what makes this such a messy choice for me. I feel bad either way, but I may come back sometime. All I know is that I do not want to be here now, and therin would only be a drain on the other mods. So, just allow me this time to catch my breath, so to say.

I.... see.... alright then, I guess I can't say anything else but like I said the first time, you better stay on AIM k? XD

Quote (Albel)

I just, I need to get back in shape again...I'm a little messed by this still. I'm sorry to those who are hurt by this, and I'm sorry braden, I know that, which is what makes this such a messy choice for me. I feel bad either way, but I may come back sometime. All I know is that I do not want to be here now, and therin would only be a drain on the other mods. So, just allow me this time to catch my breath, so to say.

Well, don't forget about us, okay? I think I speak for everyone that we'll be happy to have you back around when you feel up to it. Don't rush yourself though: take what time you need to get things sorted out.

Looking forward to seeing you around in the future.

Stay in touch with us-- you've always been one of our best and it's clear that the extent to which you were tied into the politics of this place has taken its toll.

We all anticipate your possible return. I want to add my name to the list of people who sincerely wish you well.

Haha...ahhahaha...HAHAHAHA!!! Oh my god, lose everything, start again...my gawd, I can't do this....

I'm sorry, I cannot come back into the RP ever, I can't lose Militiaman and Simon, nor can I restart them. I can't stand to lose all the work, all the story I developed, all the time, money, and thought I put into my characters, I can't just cast that aside. I shall never return to the RP with my characters, I shall probably never come back to the site after this.

Don;t misunderstand, I do not ask for an exception to the rule, this is what you all decided and it suits you fine. Goodbye and good luck.

It's cool man, people don't expect this of someone who had all kind of work. You were probably the farthest along in their roleplaying. You had characters that would always be remembered by the people who knew who you were. If they knew who Fenix was, and they knew your navi. They knew how much you truly put into the site. It was like a third home to you probably, and those characters were your parts of the play, that was Chaos Network.

You knew you parts in the play, you had everything set up. You had the fifth signature, you were part of my inspiration to be better then I was. Look where it got me, a mediocre navi, and a crappy reputation. But I changed slowly, slowly became better. And slowly moved away from the site, instead of thinking about what to do for homework. I actually just wrote a site down and hope I can get a computer in the school tomorrow.

Fenix, in a quote, you said American and Militiaman should fight. Even though I knew you would win. Partially because you had five attack +1's, I wanted to fight you. Because it would be about skill, and I would finally learn how much I was liked, and how good I was at roleplaying.

You were my inspiration for my fifth signature attack, The Atom Bomb.

;~;

I guess I pretty much screwed up any moment that was already there, didn't I?